Ashley Michel told Justin Trudeau what was on her heart as an intergenerational survivor of the Kamloops Indian Residential School on Oct. 18.

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Editor's note: This article contains content about residential “schools” that may be triggering. Kelsie Kilawna is a syilx reporter who’s committed to syilx storytelling protocol and trauma-informed, ethical reporting — which involves taking time and care, self-location, transparency and safety care plans for those who come forward with stories to share.

Ashley Michel had the chance to speak her mind to Prime Minister Justin Trudeau on Monday in her home community of Tk’emlúps te Secwépemc — known to many as Kamloops, B.C.

She said that she spent the night before collecting her thoughts. 

“Mr. Trudeau, there is a lot I want to say, but you do not know me. I need you to listen. I want you to hear my voice,” she began to write.

Michel is a Secwépemc woman, mother, entrepreneur and student. On Oct. 18, she delivered her speech to the prime minister before a crowd of attendees and media representatives gathered at the Tk’emlúps te Secwépemc Powwow Arbour. 

“My heart aches for the mothers who never got to see their babies again. My heart aches for the children who were scared and lonely and just wanted to go home but didn’t make it. My heart aches for the children who were robbed of their childhood, culture, language, and traditions — some of whom are sitting around you here today,” she said.  

Trudeau’s visit to Secwépemc territory came after he declined to accept an earlier invitation to join the community in ceremony on Sept. 30 for the first National Day for Truth and Reconciliation. 

Kúkpi7 Roseanne Casimir, chief of Tk’emlúps te Secwépemc, says she sent two invitations to Trudeau. Instead, as widely reported, he chose to spend the day on vacation with his family in the Ha-Hoothlee (traditional lands) of the Tla-o-qui-aht Nation, in so-called Tofino, B.C. 

“I’m sorry I wasn’t here on September 30. It was a mistake and I understand it made a difficult day even harder,” Trudeau told the crowd on Monday. “You didn’t have to invite me back. I know that. Thank you for doing so.”

On May 27, Casimir shared with the world what was already known to many Indigenous Peoples, that ground-penetrating radar had confirmed the existence of 215 unmarked graves on the grounds of the so-called Kamloops Indian Residential School. 

It was the first in a succession of heartbreaking uncoverings of unmarked children’s graves on the sites of former church and government-run institutions — which masqueraded as “schools” for Indigenous children — across the country.

Michel says she prepared to deliver her message to the prime minister by listening to her favourite powwow music. She wore an orange shirt for hope and a ribbon skirt for strength.

As she spoke, an eagle flew above her, she says, and when she finished, she turned to her family’s embrace.

This is what she said:

My name is Ashley.

I am a proud Indigenous Mother and I come from a long line of strong, independent, successful, Secwépemc women.

I am hurting. 

My heart aches for the mothers who never got to see their babies again. My heart aches for the children who were scared and lonely and just wanted to go home but didn’t make it. My heart aches for the children who were robbed of their childhood, culture, language, and traditions — some of whom are sitting around you here today. 

Because of what happened, because of residential schools and the forced assimilation, colonization, and genocide of our people [on] Turtle Island, I am mourning — for our language, culture, and traditions that I so desperately am trying to reclaim and teach my daughter before it’s too late.

I want a good life and future for her and the generations to come. A good future means a life where she is not grieving, she is not triggered. Our kids don’t need to feel this pain. It stops with my generation.

We need more than just words and broken promises, Mr. Trudeau. 

We need action. We need justice. We need accountability. 

Use your power and privilege for good. Make this visit count.

A National Indian Residential School Crisis Line has been set up to provide support for former students and those affected. Access emotional and crisis referral services by calling the 24-hour national crisis line: 1-866 925-4419. Within B.C., the KUU-US Crisis Line Society aims to provide a “non-judgmental approach to listening and problem-solving.” The crisis line is open 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Call 1-800-588-8717 or go to kuu-uscrisisline.com. KUU-US means “people” in Nuu-chah-nulth.

— This story was originally published by The Discourse and IndigiNews.

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